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    JUSTMOLLY13   19,244
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No pity party for me ...

Thursday, February 10, 2011

I want to thank you for the kind words of encouragement and "you can do its"
I know what has to be done to get back on track i just am having a rough time . I even posted my fat picture inside my fridge,and i open the door look at my picture and say
"hello old friend" and grab something to eat anyway.
and here i am trying to be open and honest about my failures, confessing my sins(well not all my sins)
i just realized today what this is really about. you see i was married on valentines day on the beautiful island of maui( my favorite place in the world) under the banyan tree. and now i am divorced and i still love my ex, but he's an alcoholic that refuses to get help.I thought he would change, but it never happened, but i wait and i pray and i wait some more and its been 5 years since our divorce. i feel like my life is on hold , i am standing still ,waiting for this miracle to happen so i can move on with my life

so this eating i have been doing right now is simply stress,lonliness and old memories, it will be over as soon as valentines day is over and i can get back on program . i'm not looking for pity or sympathy i'm just telling my SP friends that i discovered what it is that has taken over my brain, my body and my heart . so now i can deal with it!! most of the time i'm upbeat and happy and my cup is always half i will be back to normal soon..hugs

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SCOTTK3000 2/13/2011 10:05AM

    sounds like a plan!

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APIRLRAIN888 2/11/2011 12:21AM

    you can do it! we can do this!!! go go go

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CIVIAV 2/10/2011 9:37PM


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CSNODGRASS 2/10/2011 8:52PM

    Praying for you. I know how hard it is to love someone with an addiction.

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 2/10/2011 7:46PM


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MRSBENNETT2 2/10/2011 7:30PM

    Ah, heck. I hate emotional baggage! Still carry mine around sometimes but thankfully it's getting lighter and lighter. :)
Good for you for having the insight to realise what's really making you feel this way. So many of us never get to that point of enlightenment. And now about this "miracle"...are you waiting for your ex to kick his addiction? Honey, that might never happen sadly enough despite all the prayers and hopes - be strong and healthy for yourself FIRST, and then you will have more to give others. emoticon

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