Thursday, February 10, 2011
Good morning everyone. I'm feeling positive today and today believe I can really do this plan and be successful. I am also starting a workshop on the Sugar and Food Addiction team entitled Sugar...the Hidden Eating Disorder. I am really looking forward to delving deep and getting some answers as to why my issues around the food still plague me after all these years. I will be required to go deep inside and really search for reasons why I do what I do (or should I say did what I did), even when I don't want to. I thought I was really looking forward to this journey, but have been putting off starting the workshop. I have read through the materials for the last week and then....I decide to postpone or avoid taking the first step, always with a "good" excuse. I know that recovery requires doing the footwork, but I still stay stuck. What am I afraid of? What is the worst that can happen? What will I learn about myself? So, regardless of my feelings or my fears, I commit to picking a quiet time tonight, grabbing my journal, and getting down to business. I am reminded of a slogan from a twelve step fellowship that says....."It works if you work it", so that's what I'm going to do.