Wednesday, February 09, 2011
I just hit bottom. Iīve had a lot of stress lately, with the university, work, and loads of friends having birthdayparties that I had to go to. So I skipped SP. I thought I didnīt have the time, Iīd manage anyways, and it was just for a short while. I also skipped exercise, I went like 2 or 3 times in that time. I ate really bad, cause I thought I didnīt have the time to cook properly. I got a huuuge appetite for sweets and stuff, and since I didnīt write anything down, I hardly noticed eating more and more.
Today I bought chips and chocolate. And I ate all of it. Now Iīm feeling so sick Iīd really like to throw up, but I canīt... :( This is it! Binge-eating! Stress! I have to learn to deal with it without eating crap and stop exercising!!
Iīm really feeling crap right now, but at least Iīm motivated to go on with it now... I washed the dishes and threw away the trash, so now there are no traces of the last few days of mindless eating. But I know it happened, and Iīm not gonna let it get that far anymore!