I am not sure what is going on. I am going through a period of not being able to concentrate on much of anything. I have not been tracking. I have been eating things I should not or at least not in the amounts that I am consuming. The only real stress over the past couple of weeks I have had is stress that I have put on myself. It is over my diet, the fact I did not get out to the Y last week, that I have gained a couple more pounds, that the snow is not melting and the temperature is not rising. Oh, add to that the fact I have misplaced, lost or thrown out a $278 pair of glasses. I know that in time, I will either find them or I will not. What is done is done. Oh, and I have extremely fine and thin hair and it is not doing anything, but falling flat or flying up! I was going through a period where I was putting makeup on daily, and that has kind of slipped by the wayside. If I get a little eyebrow pencil on and maybe a little lipstick, oh well!

I am at the point that I can still try and encourage others, but I cannot seem to encourage myself. I want to get back to doing things as I know I should. I need to make sure I take my diabetic meds correctly. I do want to try and wean myself off of other meds and start taking more vitamins and supplements. I want to desire to eat foods that I do not care for that are healthy for me. What is the holdup or turnoff about craving what is good for me?

Thinking today about how nice it would be to have a girl's day at the spa. I know my friends and myself are all on tight budgets right now. But just maybe, if I would try to stick a little bit away for a while. a day at the beauty college could be affordable for a massage and a new hairstyle. Oh, and while there, they even put makeup on you and do a hand massage. Something to think about!

Oh, and I could use a few