Improvements only go so far, I want physical differences
Sunday, February 06, 2011
Everyone says they want to be healthy and this and that, yeah we all want that, but I want more! I want to see physical differences, mainly the scale going down and smaller clothes :)!
I think I've been in denial and I've just been barely squeaking by. Telling myself oh maybe it just takes time or maybe it's muscle ha ha ha! I've been doing P90X for a while and I've know for a few weeks that it just isn't enough for me. I need to do more, I need to get my lazy behind up and walk over to the fitness center and work out!
Last Thursday I had my little wake up call, I did a 50mins of cardio (other than p90X) and at the end my HRM told that me what I knew all along. I need to do cardio that keeps my HR up the entire time and doesn't allow 30second breaks every 10mins or so. Then Friday night another step out of denial. I went to taekwondo for an hour and a half, then did 45mins of running and since I was feeling like an eager bunny I lifted some weights.
So I have improved on the strength aspect, but that's it. Like huge improvements 100lbs for bench press now and 70lbs on chest flys, used to be 65lbs and 35 respectively not too long ago. I made a comment to the person I was working out with about how I've improved, but I don't look like a person who works out. Regardless, the person was genuinely encouraging and talked to them about my goals a little. I'm proud of myself for making those improvements, but I know I can do better with other aspects.
Saturday night I got my lazy behind up and walked to the fitness center. Worked out for an hour and burned 720 calories ha ha ha! Alright I'm out of denial, this week I'm going to do something besides p90x (its my cardio/recovery week) so I'm going to see if doing work outs that keep my HR about 160 almost the entire time help with weight loss.
I think I've just been going with the flow for way too long, putting in some effort, but not doing the things I know I need to be doing. I think I've been in denial about my workouts and my eating habits, instead blaming it on stress from work and not enough sleep. I think I can only tell myself what i want to hear for so long, unfortunately these days the scale nor the my HRM tell me what I want. Which means that I need to change those things, and if I want real changes that I can see, then I need to put in real effort!!!