Saturday, February 05, 2011
It has been almost a month (26 days to be exact) since I joined Sparkpeople.com. I have lasted longer than I thought I would and have lost a total of 5 pounds so far. So, as I just finished picking up a few items from the grocery store and was on my way home- thinking about my meals for the upcoming week, for whatever reason, a small panic arose in me as I thought "Am I really going to have to do this forever, even after I have lost the weight?"
I don't know why I am worried about it- this truly has been a pleasant experience. I don't feel like I am really depriving myself. I do spend quite a bit of time logging my meals, reading inspiring/motivational stories and trying to understand this whole weight loss process. And there have been moments where I have had cravings for certain things but it hasn't been overly bad. I actually love fruits, vegetables and a lot of healthy foods. And I am slowly discovering a love for plain water ( normally I have to put a flavored packet in it before I can even think about drinking it).
I don't know why I am even having these negative thoughts. Of course I can do this. Of course I can invest the time and effort it takes to look and feel good. Maybe eventually- it gets easier but even if it doesn't, I am in it for the long haul. I don't want to go back to my old habits. In addition to looking and feeling better- I am teaching my daughter healthier habits. This is a lifetime journey that I am committed to.