I made up my mind... It was a toss up between Chicago IL or Rochester NY . Rochester won.
I feel the need to bring the fight to my hometown. I haven't seen my family since my mom passed away in 2000. In a way, this is a much needed leg in my journey because I have always been ashamed for letting myself go like I have and didn't want anyone to see me like that.
Now, running the marathon represents the pinnacle of what i have tried to do for the last three years. Its my graduation.
My reasons for wanting to take on the challenge of the Marathon are numerous.
If you don't define the why of a goal, you will find it harder to reach it.
My whys are these....
1) Frankly, men are designed to conquer. My obesity has basically stripped me of all pride and I need a "Mount Everest" to climb to prove that, at 41 yrs old, I'm not over the hill, I'm just getting started baby - BRING IT! I'm a man and I'm still in the fight! Ego or not, that's the way it is and how I'm put together. I need to prove it to MYSELF that I am worthy of respect, self respect can only be earned.
2) I need a big goal to keep me focused. 26.2 miles is really scary to me because I know what it is to hit the wall when running... not pretty. I will never be satisfied with where I am at until I "pass the test". A Marathon does not mean you are or are not a runner but it is a calling. I was a runner the day I ran my first race. It's the LOVE of what you do not the distance. I feel the Marathon calling me and have felt it calling since I completed my half.
3) It is my personal "graduation". While one never truly arrives in this journey, I feel like it "seals the deal" for me. I want to be immersed in this new lifestyle head to toe and never look back.
Whether I will continue to run marathons remains to be seen. I love half marathons shorter distance races simply because you can do more of them and I LOVE the atmosphere of a good, well organized event. Its like one big party with a Woo Hoo at the end. I never get tired of finish line fever, it is one of life's most affirming experiences.
I love you guys/gals, you really make a difference for me. I get really busy with a very demanding work schedule and I don't get around to all of my friends but I care alot and those that really know me will vouch for that. I love to hear from you in emails and comments. You keep me going and I hope I can return the favor.