Friday, February 04, 2011
I've been maintaining for 6 months now. I had hoped it would be becoming second nature by now. In some ways it is, but in other ways it is just as scary. I've been having kind of an ongoing discussion with a spark friend who has also reached the maintenance level. Some days we have more questions than answers. Since the first of the year, I've been up a couple and down a couple of pounds over and over. Have upped the fitness minutes, but that hasn't seemed to have the effect it did when I was battling to get the last few pounds off last July.
Here's an excerpt from my note a few minutes ago:
"I've been thinking of blogging this, but not sure how I want to go at it yet. Don't want it to come off whiny when so many people struggle just to lose at all. Don't want to seem that way to you, either. Just last week I tell you I'm determined, and now I'm waffling. I'm in uncharted territory here--never maintained a weight loss this long before, and I still have questions. I guess from here on out it's really an experiment in life. So, here goes:
#1 I want to feel fit and healthy.
#2 I want to stay in all these clothes I've bought. :)
#3 I'd like to stay b/t 135 and 138, unless I could ever go lower EASILY.
So on to my dilemma:
#1 I have gotten to where I like working out, but I don't want to have to kill myself. Today, I am a little sore in the arms and shoulders, but I would have been regardless, since I had to do that (shoveling) for work yesterday. The shape I'm now in allows me to do that job much more easily. However, my glutes are rather sore today too, and I see that as a result of more walking/running than usual this week, esp. this morning. And I was uncontrollably hungry last night. If that's from extra workout minutes, no thank you. (Not sure how to tell, though) .
#2 Nobody knows what the scale says unless I tell them. It's my own vanity that wants to keep under 140. But on the other hand, would I be I deluding myself that 140 is okay? Is accepting that a license to start creeping upwards? Other than going to a bod pod somewhere, is the fit of my clothes the only way to determine if I'm building muscle and not losing control? I guess that should be enough, but somehow this is all scary. I've come too far to lose any ground now.
#3 Am I over-analyzing all this? Do I just need to relax? If I relax, I could lose my grip. Am I just a big control freak?"
So now, Sparkies, esp. maintainers, I'm asking you. How do you know you're where you're supposed to be? How do you tell if you're building a little muscle, or if you are starting to lose control? Do you "fight" to stay in the range you selected for yourself? And how much leeway do you give yourself before you start fighting? I thought after 6 months I'd be over the questions. I think I may be getting more confused.