Tuesday, February 01, 2011
So I have been having a real issue with my moods lately. I think I could very well be depressed, but I guess I am having a hard time bringing myself to that reality. I mean if I were given meds and they help great, but what if they don't work and I am still mad a grouchy all the time? Well I can't even say I am mad all the time...when I am at work I am not usually mad or if I have a weekend with no kids or spouse. But during those times even tho I may not be angry, I feel low. Don't get me wrong I love my husband and our kids with all my heart, but yet I always feel like I want to leave! Not saying suicidal leave, just be by myself. I feel I am always mad, and yelling at my kids and I don't like it!! I don't want my kids to grow up thinking their mom was a horrible mother
I am hoping to get in with the doctor either sometime this week or next to see what is wrong.