Hi all my
I have to start this post off by being honest and stating that since my last blog post (beginning of January) I have done absolutely nothing to better myself and I did not stop drinking as planned HOWEVER some recent events in my life has caused me to take a good hard look at where I am and the kind of person I am inside and out. I have started going to counseling in the attempt to not only transform my body but my soul and mind as well. I started reading books and I am even learning Chinese!
I have adapted a new way of thinking- Live your life and stop focusing on what you dont have an d focus on what you do have. That said I have a whole lot to be grateful about, including a weight loss!
As of today I am at my lowest weight in almost fours years and only 18 LBS to a healthy BMI!!!!! I have maintained my semi vegetarian (Pescetarian) lifestyle for the past month and have now started tracking my meals with spark and working out everyday (I'm on a four day roll!).
I guess my little hiatus from spark has renewed my motivation and seeing the scale this morning helped "a little"
By the way..........
Next step is leaving 170's and heading towards 155 where I was when I met DH and before my DS! I cant explain how good it feels to finally be this close to my weight loss goals, I can see changes in my body and I cant stop putting my hands on my waist because its so SMALL????
Since my theme today is kind of a "Re new and Restart". I am going to take a minute and re list my done statements with some new additions...
I am completely DONE-
*(NEW) With seeing the 180's on my scale! NEVER AGAIN!!!
*(NEW)Having to pull up my pants over my fat roll when I sit down
*(NEW) With the 170's also, I'm moving on down!
*Avoiding my own reflection
*Feeling like I'm bigger than everyone around me
*Having a closet full of cloths that done fit me
*Having to buy bigger pants because the closet full of cloths dont fit me
*Not feeling comfortable wearing my adorable collection of heels because I feel to big
*Having sex with my cloths on because I dont want to gross out my husband
*Looking at other girls and wishing I looked like them
*Being to tired to play with my son after a whole day of not seeing him
*Being completely exhausted every day by 3pm
*Wearing a size that is double digit
*Having a BMI that isnt in a normal range
*Feeling like I'm 50 when I'm 21
Bri!! Thank you to all of the amamzing spark friends who have stayed my friends even though I have been out of it and off track lately. I am back! and have a family reunion in July that I would really like to spend most of my time there in a bikini *Gulp*
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