After a LONG absence from SP, I'm back. In the interim time, I was pregnant, spent 3 weeks in the hospital, had a baby, and quit my job. I have had a lot going on.
The long story short: while pregnant I focused exclusively on being pregnant and just doing that experience. I did not worry about my weight, other than to be sure I was gaining enough but not too much for a healthy pregnancy. I ate however I felt I needed to, cut out all alcohol, cut way back on caffeine, drank boat loads of water, and did prenatal yoga and walking. My baby was growing beautifully and my body was a glorious temple of baby-making.
Then... that changed. In the 3rd trimester I developed serious preeclampsia, which puts you at risk for stroke, seizures, organ failure, and pre-term birth. And one day I went to the doctor for a check up and she said "let's send you to the hospital for a few tests" and I didn't go home for 4 weeks. They admitted me that day and kept me on full bed rest until the baby was born. It was such a huge change that my life just sort of turned upside down.
And then I came home with a baby! A tiny, perfect, adorable, healthy baby boy. I was exhausted and a bit worse for wear, but he was literally perfect. And 5 months later, honestly, I still haven't fully adjusted. I love being a mom, but I have not figured out how to be my old self and my new self. That is to say how to have balance. When do I find time for me? I've not yet figured that out.
I don't mind so much, usually, because right now my whole world is about this baby and mostly I'm ok with that. But... I need to get back in shape. I don't mean back into some rockin' smokin' MILF body. I just want to be fit, healthy, full of energy and vitality, and feeling good physically and emotionally about myself. And that takes time. And dedication. So I've got to find some ME time to make that happen. So today is a new day...