Sunday, January 30, 2011
Lately, I find myself struggling on my journey. It is getting too easy to blow off my workouts-both the independent ones and the ones with my personal trainer. I am also eating ridiculous amounts of food. Mostly junk food, but really anything & everything. Well, except fruits and veggies. Don't know why I never binge on those.
I don't know what to do. I go to my WW meetings and listen to everyone talk about the success they are having. The funniest thing yesterday was hearing how people DON'T want to eat after a strenuous workout! There must be something wrong with me. That's when I want to eat the most! And I give myself permission to eat whatever I want.
I want to say that I don't have anyone to support me. But that's not true. There are many people in my real life and online who would do anything to help me reach my goals. I think the problem is that I don't ask for help because I don't know what anyone can do to help me. It's up to me to control my eating. It's up to me to stop making excuses for skipping workouts. I'M the one who will be to blame if I gain back all of the weight I lost. Why am I OK with that possibility?