Sunday, January 30, 2011
Had it happened in different circumstances, I think yesterday would have been one of the better days as a parent. As it stood, it turned out to be (for me) one of the biggest disasters I could have had in recent memory. I think now I know how my Dad felt when I got married as I know he felt similarly about certain issues, although I did get married in the church, (which I thought I was doing the RIGHT thing even though my Dad was a convert and a lapsed one at that- I thought I was making my family happy by marrying in the church as opposed to finding someone who was either not Catholic or worse yet non religious even if my parents didn't like my fiancee at the time). I made sure both my kids went to church and took all the sacraments. It was CLEAR to me last night by all the money WASTED (in my opinion) on several photographers, a videographer, 2 slide shows etc that money was not a factor in it. I don't know what to think except that I am not happy about the situation. I was also basically told to keep my opinions to myself which did nothing to defuse my frustration level. I also did not eat well yesterday which did little to make me feel better.To put the icing on the cake I said something to my Mom (yeah the one who dragged us off to Mass EVERY Sunday whether WE wanted to go that day or not) saying that there was no right or wrong about (God or religion) that it's all in your head (I couldnt help but think what a supremely stupid statement not to mention how it probably deeply offended MY SAVIOR).