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Today I Weep

Saturday, January 29, 2011

Today I weep for my daughter Monica and myself. Monica was gone (mentally over a year ago) and was the only one of my children to call me just to "chat." "Let's bond, mom" she would say. She didn't call to ask anything of me but my time. She left me mentally over a year ago, but the times of her just wanting to talk are forever gone now. When she was sick, and in one of those "times," she was hateful and avoided me, but when she was well she would call me just to talk, or to go somewhere with her. She never borrowed from me that she failed to repay.

Today I am painfully aware of what I lost. I am sorry she felt "second best" as when she was well she was always there for me. Today was a reminder this era is gone and I cry.
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    Thank you for sharing, my heart is full for you and my own mother.
    We all miss my older sister after 20 years. She was only 24.
    You daughter is a beautiful spirit and peaceful now. emoticon
    2577 days ago
    A mother's love for her children is like no other love.You need to allow yourself to go through the grieving. Keep your eyes on Him!
    2578 days ago
    I know, hurts. emoticon , my friend.
    2578 days ago
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    I am sorry. Go ahead a weep. Let it out. You need to do that for you. HUGS being sent your way.
    2579 days ago
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