Saturday, January 29, 2011
Was commenting on a blog and realized, again, that it is what I wanted to say today. Talking about bariatric surgery, this is what I said, "It's a big step. Are you sure you can't lose the weight the conventional way? I was also considering it for a while until the day I had almost convinced my GP to recommend me for it (in order to be covered by our health plan), I chickened out at the last minute. For whatever reason, I wanted to give it one more try on my own. I knew deep down that I had not given my commitment to ALL those programs I tried before. I would do the diet part but not the exercise part. Of course, I'd give up and blame the diet program of the day for failing and would pack on the pounds until the next 'magic cure' would come my way. Now twice the weight I should be, I realize that I have to re-educate myself on healthy living and truly participate. And yes, it's hard, and it's slow in my case because I have difficulty with portion control but it's worth it. I have been with SP 6 months today and have lost 40 lbs. I know I could have lost a lot more by now but life happens all around me and I have to learn to live with it. The important thing is that I am sticking with it and slowly but surely, I am changing my bad habits and replacing them with better ones, much better ones. When I have ups, I try to encourage other sparkers. When I have downs, I reach out to get a boost of energy and motivation and get back on track. And I will get there. I will get back to that 150 lbs I used to think was soooo big before. And what happens after that will only be the cherry on top..."
I just have had a couple of bad weeks and my weight is showing it. I have been hovering around the 240 lbs mark for three weeks now. A few times lately I have not been able to exercise (sometimes, my body has a mind of its own and just does not want to cooperate) and found myself using all kinds of stalling excuses.
It's time to rededicate myself to the cause. It's time I go back on all my blogs and read them over to get my mojo back; it's time to change my exercise routine; it's time to complete that motivation board I never got around, strike that, I never took the time to finish (I did confess before that I was a procrastinator.) It's time to stop blogging and get moving.
I can do this! I will do this!
Here's to the next six month!
Me : ) ** Make it Happen in 2011 **