Friday, January 28, 2011
There is a fine line between dedication to a goal and being too stubborn to quit. I took a hard look at where I am at with training for this upcoming Spring Marathon and i am not ready at all. The biggest hinderance is the weather where I am at. You can only do so much on a treadmill. You need serious road time to properly train and due to injuries and illness, I would be stupid to try.
The Marathon is in May and about late March would be the earliest I could expect to hit the bricks. Add in recovering (still) from asthmatic bronchitus and there is just no way.
I am not upset about this. Rehab is expensive and big bills await those who are ego driven. Fortunately I am not driven by ego. I would rather run a powerful Half Marathon and walk away with victory or I can limp through a Marathon, collect my "survivors medal" and spend the next 3 months trying to recover. You cant fix stupid. A man has to know his limitations.
Rather, I am looking to take on this challenge in the Fall. It is up in the air whether I will run the Chicago Marathon or go back home to Rochester NY to run the Rochester Marathon. I havent seen my family since my mom passed away 10 years ago....I think its time to go home.
Actually this is a no brainer. Rochester it is. My Dad passed away when I was in my mid 20's and my mom passed away when I was 29. They kept her alive on life support just so I could fly in and have a chance to say goodbye. I still remember signing the authorization to pull the plug. It was a painful experience. The one person who embodied unconditional love, gone. All that is left of my immediate family is my sister. I am very familiar with the high cost of poor health and a lack of fitness.
For those that know me or care to know me, I work an insane schedule and am always too busy. Life doesnt stop and offer a coffee break. I need to make myself take the time or I will be the loser.