WAKE UP, ERIN!! (letter to myself)
Friday, January 28, 2011
What the hell are you doing? You vent about your morning on SP, and then you proceed to completely go off the deep end. You had what for your mid-morning breakfast? Popcorn chicken???? With mayo???????? Then, what did you just have for "lunch?" Tuna Helper? The whole F*$KING BOX?????? Are you nuts? Why are you doing this to yourself, to your body? You deserve so much better than this...
So what, you didn't get to work out this morning? So what, your plans changed? That's life, and you need to learn how to live it, and have a plan B when plan A fails. Because that will happen to you. It happens.
Also, I get that you are down today, but you need to pick yourself up. You have no reason to be depressed. You are living the life you have always wanted! And now you even have close to the body you have always wanted. Why do you want to hurt yourself?
Look around you, look at all of the comments and emails and messages you have gotten about how motivating you are, how inspiring you are...take that to heart, honey. Stop feeling/thinking like you are a fraud. Get over it.
Start feeling the emotions that you have been hiding, that you haven't been dealing with. Who cares if thre is no basis for the way you have been feeling, JUST FEEL THEM. Let them take over until you are drained of all of it, then move on.
I love you too much to let you fall to the wayside...you have a little girl who loves you, and when she comes home, she wants her mommy..be there for her, her happy healthy mommy.