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WAKE UP, ERIN!! (letter to myself)

Friday, January 28, 2011

Erin,

What the hell are you doing? You vent about your morning on SP, and then you proceed to completely go off the deep end. You had what for your mid-morning breakfast? Popcorn chicken???? With mayo???????? Then, what did you just have for "lunch?" Tuna Helper? The whole F*$KING BOX?????? Are you nuts? Why are you doing this to yourself, to your body? You deserve so much better than this...

So what, you didn't get to work out this morning? So what, your plans changed? That's life, and you need to learn how to live it, and have a plan B when plan A fails. Because that will happen to you. It happens.

Also, I get that you are down today, but you need to pick yourself up. You have no reason to be depressed. You are living the life you have always wanted! And now you even have close to the body you have always wanted. Why do you want to hurt yourself?

Look around you, look at all of the comments and emails and messages you have gotten about how motivating you are, how inspiring you are...take that to heart, honey. Stop feeling/thinking like you are a fraud. Get over it.

Start feeling the emotions that you have been hiding, that you haven't been dealing with. Who cares if thre is no basis for the way you have been feeling, JUST FEEL THEM. Let them take over until you are drained of all of it, then move on.

I love you too much to let you fall to the wayside...you have a little girl who loves you, and when she comes home, she wants her mommy..be there for her, her happy healthy mommy.

Love,

Yourself.
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  • v RUNNER12COM
    What a fantastic letter. Now, go back and read it again and get yourself back in the right direction!

    You are SO worth it!

    SDJ
    2006 days ago
  • v THEMRSH
    We've all written this letter to ourselves at one point or another. It's a nice way to get it out there! Love Bill's "Plan C" too! Great idea. Hope today is better for you.
    2008 days ago
  • v AURORA1423
    I hope you have a better day today. Just know that the bad days never last. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    2008 days ago
  • v NITELITE72
    There is nothing like a good cry...but then you have to pick yourself up and move on. I believe in you and I know you will do it! I think having extra plans is the best way to accomplish what you want when you have small children. emoticon
    2009 days ago
  • v ROOT4HOME
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    2009 days ago
  • v THEHONESTME
    I hope you got through the rest of your day without atotal melt-down, Erin. You'll have to check out my blog from last night -- I was pretty much feeling the same way as you. Stress and change of plans... ugh... the WORST things that can happen to me. They throw me off my game every time. I wish I was one of those people who just went with the flow...
    Maybe if we can learn how to do that, we can conquer this weight loss thing once and for all!
    Well, regardless, you are doing great. Don't quit on yourself!
    Get out of your funk and have a great weekend! You can do this!!
    2009 days ago
  • v NUTRIGIRL08
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    2009 days ago
  • v DUSTYGIRL25
    Whew!! Good for You!
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    2009 days ago
  • v BECKY_LYNN84
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  • v BILLALEX70
    I'd suggest a "Plan C" also.

    I hope venting and the good cry has you back in track.
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    2009 days ago
  • v RUNNER4LIFE08
    Fantastic letter to yourself! Hopefully by doing this you realized how great you are! And that just because you had a bad morning doesn't mean that you have to complete the day on a bad note.

    Put a smile on your face and enjoy your time with your little girl when she gets home. I know my kids always make me smile so hopefully she can help get you out of the funk.

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    2009 days ago
  • v TEDDYBABE
    You reached out to your friends, that's awesome! So its not a TOTAL right off. So you took a well deserved vacation day from dieting! WE ALL HAVE! You are going to be fine. Hot bath, fuzzy jammies, fun with your precious daughter... you deserve it. emoticon
    2009 days ago
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  • v ILIKECACTI
    I feel like you could be writing this letter me today! I'm glad you posted this. I had my cry last night. I need to get my a$$ back in gear. Wallowing in depression does me no favors.
    2009 days ago
  • v GOGOSHIRE
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  • v ROBYN168
    Hang in there my friend - right now is the start of the rest of the day - put the first part behind you and march right on forward and grab it by the horns.

    Carbo loading before your cold long run tomorrow - not a bad idea - emoticon
    2009 days ago
  • v PINKBEANBOO
    Aw, Sweetie, the day is only half over. Reward yourself with a bubble bath when you finish it off strong. It will help relax you after you feel all those feelings. I know that can be exhausting.
    2009 days ago
  • v IRISH_AGUIRRE
    A beautiful, heartfelt letter to yourself. Listen to it! You spoke the truth and gave great advice. We're here to help you keep going. emoticon emoticon
    2009 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/28/2011 2:17:54 PM
  • v -POOKIE-
    *hugs*

    Plans changing always unsettle me really badly as well and often the cause of overeating and poor choices for me. I dont have a lot of advice to offer on that, but just to say you are not alone in this problem xx
    2009 days ago
  • v MEGSFITNESS
    awe sweetie :( "momma said there'd be days like this, there'd be days like this my momma said... "

    You'll get through it. No matter what, just make sure the next decision you make is a healthy one. No more beating yourself up. What's done is done and you can't undo it, but you can make sure that the next thing you do is positive.

    I hope you feel better after your cry. I usually do.

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    2009 days ago
  • v BLEIGH711
    Great Blog! I have been going through a lot of those feelings...and actions...myself. I need to just feel too. You said everything so well, that I just want to say...AMEN! You have come so far...and honestly you really are a huge inspiration to me. Kick this rough patch to curb and get that great body of your moving again. You can do this. And you know where to find me if there is ever a thing I can do.
    2009 days ago
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