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Picture Documentary~ Making Me More Accountable for Me!

Friday, January 28, 2011

So... I decided that I'm a "visual" type of person... if I can see it... then it's there. If I don't, well then... I can guess that it's there. (Or not).

So, after coming upon this conclusion... I decided that maybe if I make myself "SEE" me for what I really look like, instead of avoiding the mirrors; etc. Then I may make myself more accountable for me. I've decided to post a picture of myself (on my blog and on my Sparkpage) weekly. Of course there won't be any significant changes in a week (I don't imagine).... but, I'll be able to see my progress over time. (Not sure if I'm brave enough to post to Facebook just yet.)

So... Here we are: Week 1 ~ Back at 190lbs. ~ Miserable, Unhappy, Stressed Out, Overwhelmed & FAT!!

(I absolutely HATE this picture... but I hate that I allowed myself to get to this again... even more!)
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    It's a great way to start and can be very motivational!!! Good job :) You can do this, and get to where you won't have to see that anymore!
    2484 days ago
    Thank you so much for your encouragement. That's one of the things I love most about Sparkpeople... we're just a bunch of people who know exactly how each other feels, and we truly are proud of others when they succeed. Thank you so much! emoticon
    2485 days ago
    Good job posting this--- it is hard as heck to admit where we are to ourselves, much less other people!
    2485 days ago
    Pictures are so helpful, it's tough posting that first picture (I have one on my page that also says this is so embarrassing) but on down the line you'll be glad you did, and I am very proud of you for having the courage to do so, and yes, it is courage, this whole journey is, so don't sell yourself short. I wish you the best and I know you can do this!
    2485 days ago
    EMGERBER: Thank you for your encouragement. I'll tell you... I don't know if it was courage or just being fed up and knowing that something has to change. I am embarrassed of that picture... I can't believe my body is a wreck... but part of me figures that if I can allow myself some embarrassment, then maybe I can get it together and get back on this pony! I did so good a year ago... then LIFE happened and I fell off the wagon... I was at a point that I just couldn't "make" myself do anything... but... I have to fight through it... I have to do something... I really am miserable, unhappy, stressed out, overwhelmed and ill most of the time. I know that with diet and exercise, most of this will change... and with a better self image (especially after I start losing the weight)... the rest will just follow. Thank you for your comment & the best of luck to you as well. This is definitely a hard battle, but it's worth it!
    2485 days ago
    It took allot of courage to make this step. I am not there yet myself but as I see SP taking this step I hope to get to this point. I also do not think that your picture is any of things you said. I wish you much success in reaching your goals.
    2485 days ago
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