Thursday, January 27, 2011
I found Sparks people a year ago when I saw it on TV and LOVED what I had found, started right a way and I was so excited! Then life deal me a hand that I chose to take instead of still staying on track with my weight and my personal goals. When I did that I just stopped .... believing. I stopped thinking that I could do it, and I stopped trying.
In December ( yes 11 months after I got the news that I would have to have ankle fusion soon) I had ankle fusion .... bad news is because I am so so overweight the doctors have told me that my recovery would be much slower than normal.
Last week I hit the bottom and I am climbing my way back up! I logged back in on week five of my ankle fusion, I can not exercise or walk or move around very much with out my leg swelling.. I'm on the couch with my leg elevated and I WAS feeling so sorry for myself...oh and eating. Then when I logged back in and read motivational pages I realized that finally I had hit the bottom of where I needed to be to make a change for me. It did not take doctors telling me to lose weight or even really the slow healing of the ankle fusion( because I am so over weight)....it took me hitting rock bottom of my own to really want to make a change.
So today I started tracking my food and will continue to use every avenue on Sparks people and As I heal I will expand what I will and can do.
What I have learned so far is that you can have all the tools right at your fingers tips and attempt to make a change but then for some reason you kinda work at. Then when you hit rock bottom for yourself that's when those changes will not only start but they ' stick'!........ I wish I would have not had to hit rock bottom so darn hard to get this lesson for myself and I am sure that many of you will not have to ...... but that's what I have learned this last week.... good news is I'm on track now and motivated for myself to make a change!