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UNK!! Yay!!!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

I am feeling amazing today, not just 'good'-but amazed with what I have done for myself!! Today I got my 'thunk!' moment :) lol-I know that makes no sense-but let me explain what it means to me.

In the past whenever I have gone to a new Dr., there is always the 1st weigh in {insert ominous music here}. I reluctantly walk down the hall and I can see my enemy THE SCALE, squatting there in silent disapproval...waiting to mock me. (yes in my head THE SCALE is all in is a scary being!) I have dressed accordingly in the lightest clothing I own, no jewelry, last run to the bathroom to get rid of any water weight possible...{sigh}...time to face the music. As I step on THE SCALE, the nurse looks at me with a slight amount of pity in her eyes and does her 'best guesstimate' of what I weigh. Now the scales at the Dr's office have the 2 levels-the bottom level jumps along in increments of 50 lbs at a time, whereas the top level does 1 lb and under increments. So the nurse makes her best guess and moves the bottom level to the closest 50 lb increment she thinks you are. This is what always crossed my mind " humiliating...that isn't even close to how much I weigh :( " So she would start tap...tap....tapping the top level over pound by pound to see if she had hit the right 50 lb level...{sigh} she didn't, now she has to move the 50 lb level up 1 more...THUNK.

I hated this , it always made me feel horrible, sad and humiliated. As much as I knew how much I had to weigh and hated it, now I had to have a public venue for displaying this...because of course there are always people milling around in the Dr. office hallways.

When I 1st started losing weight last year, I hit my 1st 'THUNK' pretty quick-because I was near a 50lb increment level already. Today I had my next 'tap...tap...tap...THUNK!' moment and got to drop that big weight down another 50 lb level!! I haven't been this weight for about 20 years? I actually got off the scale and had tears in my eyes...for a change, not tears of sorrow-but of pride :)

Today I am able to take 'THE SCALE' out of capital no longer holds this power over me to scare me, just at the mere mention of it's name ;) I am in charge of my life, the decision is mine to make each day about whether I do something good for body or not. I will continue to do good things for it...I am looking forward to my next 'THUNK!'

Everyone out there in Sparkland...we can do this! Little by little, 1 decision at a time-we can do it!!
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    I can’t believe I hadn’t read this blog before. This is SO AWESOME!! Not because you’ve lost enough to move down ANOTHER 50 lbs (that’s a whole other level of awesomeness) but that you conquered one of your fears. You are more than a mere number on the scale. You are invincible! :) Keep moving forward for your next “thunk" is closer than you think!!

    2457 days ago
    Awesome blog and awesome job. Congratulations.
    2484 days ago
    Awesome blog and awesome job. Congratulations.
    2484 days ago
    Brought tears to my eyes.. i can completely relate and I can't wait for my moment! Congrats on yours!

    2484 days ago
    I LOVE that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NICE JOB!!!!!!!! Keep it up!!! I wish you MANY more 'thunk' moments :)

    2485 days ago
    Congratulations! What a great Thunk! I don't have to deal with that anymore. My doctor went digital.
    2490 days ago
    This is an AWESOME post! Congrats to you!
    2490 days ago
    Great blog! Your comment about wearing light clothes and going to the bathroom totally sounds like what I've done in the past. I too hate those "thunk" scales and I've had the same exact experience quite often. Luckily my doctor now has all digital scales so the nurses don't have to embarrass themselves trying to guess my weight. :) I had to weigh in at the gym on one of those thunk scales for a holiday weight maintenance challenge. Luckily the lady let me move those weights myself.

    Congrats on getting another 50 pound weight notch down!! you're doing great!

    2490 days ago
    SUCH a great blog putting into words what I HAVE FELT TOO! YOU WRITE SO WELL!

    emoticon HERE is to being DOWN a 50 lb increment! HUGS!!!
    2490 days ago
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