Wednesday, January 26, 2011
I know that the vast majority would tell me to keep my chin up, to keep looking forward. Today, though, I'm in the rut of being hard on myself.
How does one who used to eat about a bazillion calories a day (I could finish a large pizza by myself, no problem, amongst what else I ate that day) go to 1200 - 1500 calories faithfully and remain pretty much where she has been on the scale? I'm not looking for miracles, but the scale jumped up .5 a lb this morning. I've been well behaved for 11 days now. I have completely quit any beverages other than water and a Gatorade at times. I thought that alone would show towards 5 lbs up and leaving! I might also mention that, while I am not exactly going for an Atkins diet being a vegetarian, I am keeping my carbs as faithfully as I can to under 120, and trying to make those carbs come from the good sources at that. For a vegetarian that is trying to eat meat proteins again after 16 years, this is something that I thought I would surely be proud of!
Maybe my expectations are too high. I would find it a little easier to understand if I wasn't monitoring myself like a hawk or if I hadn't added any physical activity at all to my week. Granted, I only do about 25 minutes of aerobics or walking 3 times a week thus far, but folks that is jumping off of clouds compared to how sedentary I used to be.
I suppose I am just curious if nearing the end of the second week might surprise me with 2 lbs. Does the first week yeild more results, or the second, typically? In 11 days I have lost 2.5 lbs and gained a half. I know this is overall a success, but I was looking forward to losing or seeing just a little more come off considering my starting size.
Welp, thanks for the vent. Time to get up and boil some eggs and suck it up. I suppose in a way just bitching about it has already relieved some of the disappointment. Onward and upward!