Tuesday, January 25, 2011
I haven't blogged in a while...heck, I hadn't really even logged in until recently. I could write a novel about where I went and why...but I don't guess that really is important and all that matters is that I'm back.
Why is it so hard to log in and participate, but so easy to just...skip a day, then a week...?
I had the most obscure dream last night. I remember going for a walk down the road that Bryce and I walk when I'm exercising. Everything was fine until I realized that nothing was changing. It just kept going, with no end and I panicked. Started running thinking I'd get to the end...but that end never came.
Woke up in a sweat...so does that count as my cardio for the day? No? Worth a shot. I don't usually dream that often, but when I do watch out because its sometimes more vivid than my life when I'm awake.
So whatever that dream was supposed to mean....
Things in my life are changing. I've been a stay at home mommy for the past year, but now I'm headed back to the working world. I had my first interview a few days ago and they hired me. I'm excited, but also a bit sad because I don't know how ready I am to leave the little one. He's been my entire life for the past year. I KNOW he'll be fine (my sister is keeping him in our home for me) but it'll be hard for me. Its for the best though. The other issue is that I've been home for so long I've almost forgotten how to interact with people. I literally only leave the house every 2 weeks for grocery shopping (or to walk)...and I'm always with my husband. I haven't been anywhere on my own in over a year. Its kinda scary...which i never thought I'd say because I used to be the most independant thing you'd ever know. Makes me wonder just how much of "Myself" is even left...
So yeah, things are changing. Change scares the hell out of me, but I think it will be a good thing. Gotta be better than the way things have been.
Wish me luck.