Monday, January 24, 2011
What a week. The work project hasn't quite gone as hoped (which isn't that much of a surprise) and it looks like I'll be spending at least another 3 days on it. I don't mind the project but so much time on the project means little time on SparkPeople. I'm really missing everyone. Plus, I have not been diligent about tracking my food. Confession: because I let stress get to me, I ate way too many mini Reese's. No doubt I'll see the repercussions of that on next week's weigh-in. But it was my choice & I can live with it.
On Wednesday, my partner told me that my father was going in on Friday to have some stents put into his heart. And that he has prostate cancer. Apparently, she got an update on Friday or Saturday that they tried to do the surgery but because one artery is 100% blocked and the other is something like 85% blocked, the surgeons are doing open heart surgery today. Why did my partner tell me? Because my parents & I are estranged, by my choice. But being the good daughter-in-law that she is, she still calls them & emails them. It's very complicated as to why I chose to cut ties with my parents. I don't wish them ill and I forgave them a long time ago. But I don't like them (yes, I said it) and being around them or even talking to them brings up such emotions that I can barely function. Did I mention that in a letter that my father wrote to me recently that he blamed me for causing him to eat so much that his weight is out of control (and thus the heart problems). He has diabetes. Heart problems run in his family. Yet I'm to blame for his bad health. Anyway, any prayers said for him would be appreciated. I don't really know what to do overall. Thank goodness I'm seeing my therapist this week so we can make a game plan.
To end this on a positive note, at yesterday's football watching party I was told that I was small. I did a double-take when my neighbor said that, and then I thanked her. Because of that inspiration, I went & did my run at the gym later that evening. I can do this! Those red cowboy boots will be mine.
Have a great week everyone!