Sunday, January 23, 2011
It's a new year so I decide to come check out sparkpeople again. I was surprised to see how long it had been since I had last visited - 339 days. Back then I was at 185. I can remember how great that felt. I am back to 200. Not too happy about that. People at work always look very surprised when I say I weigh that much. I am on the tall side 5'10" so I don't look that bad. It is mostly belly fat. My job is Human Resource Manager at a retail store. This last year the stress has been major. I have had a very hard time dealing with it. Being blamed for everything that goes on even when I am not there has put me in a bad place. There is so much negative with a HR job. All the complaining and poor me "ing". I knew it went on but now that I have this job I understand why most people only last 2 years. It will be 3 years for me this April. I have asked to get out but I am always told "NO, you do a good job better than you think you do". It has gotten a little better or maybe I am just dealing better. I think once I get my office fix in a way that it flows better for me it will be better. They moved my office while I was on vacation a few months ago and I feel like I am swimming up stream everyday. We should have some time now that the holidays are over. Hope. Hope. Hope. Anyway this has all lead to a little stress eating. Not something I usually do but seem to be doing now. I have found my will power again and my positive attitude so I am at least on the right path. Will be weighing tomorrow. I have picked Monday for my day to weigh so I don't over do on the weekends. I logged my first meals today. I was over 300 calories. I hope I can keep up with the food logs. I find it very tedious. I don't usually use the meals they print because I just can't afford to. So I have to log everything I eat or substitute. I hate it but, it does help me. Another big thing I have to work on is my thinking when I am thirsty. I just thought I need something to drink - I wonder if there are any cold soda? I need to start think I'm thirst I need a drink of water. When it comes right down to it water is what I really want soda is just easier. So I am going now and I will be drinking water.