Sunday, January 23, 2011
People always tell you that you have to lose weight for yourself. You have to do it for your health, for your life, for your future...but the truth is that I have so much more to lose weight for than just myself.
I have found the most amazing man. Now I know what you are thinking, "She is losing weight for a man now." But that's not the truth, because Joe has made it very clear that he loves me for who I am. He obviously wants me to be healthy and happy with myself, but he supports me in the decisions that I make, and if that decision is to lose weight, that's wonderful. If it is to be heavy for a little longer in my life, he is okay with that too. No. It's not a cop out for me to stay heavy, but it takes some of the stress off me knowing that he loves me even at the size that I am. How did I end up so blessed to have a man like that. But for as much as I know that he loves the Bekah I am now, I also want to be healthy for him. We have talked about getting married and having a future. I want to have a healthy future with him though. I want to go and do things and not be restricted by my weight and fitness ability. And personaly note I know, but while he thinks I look amazing, I want to knock his socks off with how good I could really look. :-)
So I want to do it for the man I love and want to spend my life with. Done. Now, when it comes to that long, happy future, my mind then thinks about our children. We have talked about a family as well and believe me, I HAVE to be healthy for my children. As many of you who read my blog know, I have PCOS. The odds are already stacked against me from the beginning. My chances of miscarrying are higher and just getting pregnant could be challenge. Those chances go down the more weight I lose. I want to give Joe healthy children and I want to be the fit and active mother that my children will require. I want them to be healthy in their own lives and I can't do that if I'm not a fit mother.
Then there are the people who have been in my life for years. My parents, my brother, my extended family, and my friends. They deserve to see me happy, fit, and healthy in my life too.
So, yes, being healthy is about yourself. But it is also about the people in your life who you love and care about. You have to be there for them too and the best way to do that is as a healthy person.