Saturday, January 22, 2011
hello sparkers ;)
haven't posted a blog in a longggg time. sorry bout that. lol. hmm..where to start?! well, when i started the new job in august, i managed to put on 5 lbs. in the first month transitioning into my new role at work.. soon after, i met a guy at work, started dating him (big mistake: never date someone that works in your building again, wendi!) and i just ended it last sunday. he treated me better than any man has, but i found our focus on our health was very different (i make mine a top priority; enough said) and i couldn't see us working out long term. so, that was tough, but better for me in the long run. so.. in the time i was dating him, his eating habits wore off on me and i become lazy, and ate fast food and cookies and ended up putting on more weight. so i decided that i had had enough, and got back on my grind. i'm at 155/156 right now and working hard to lose the weight and get down to a feel good weight. i'm eating clean and hittin the gym hard and feeling a lot more like myself again. i am starting to see my definition coming back and i can feel changes happening in my body and i know in the next 2 months, i'll be back to where i want to be. i keep thinking bout spring/summer.. can't wait!!! i plan on having a killer bod this summer. you know what i noticed that i'm going to try REALLY hard to make sure doesn't happen again this year?? every year since i've lost the weight, i put on the same 15 lbs between september and december. every year. and it is so frustrating to have to work so hard to lose the same 15 lbs every year!! so this year, i plan on getting more fit than i ever have, and come september, kick it up a notch! really get super focused. act like i have a beach to be strutting in december, because i can't gain 15 lbs every winter. it's not okay with me. it's embarrassing, and angers me. so yea, it's always good when you can take a step back and notice a pattern of your actions... so that's my plan! stay consistent - year round! also, i'm really trying to not focus on the number on the scale so much because it's more about how i feel and look.. but anyway, yea, just wanted to touch base with you all and let you know i'm here... working hard and taking care of myself!! hope you all are doing well!