Hunger is not there
Friday, January 21, 2011
We have had a stressful week. Being in the ministry there is one thing that I have learned, when someone has a problem it doesn't matter what else is going on in that minister's life their problem should be a first priority.
Call ASAP, we need to talk ASAP, what should is ASAP?
People aren't in the business for the answer, "well, you should be in prayer over it as will I." People want this is what you should do and it will make it all better. Even a DR can't work like that. With that being sad... my appetite has diminished. The past two days have been a struggle to get to my calories. Both days my calories have not reached passed 800 cals before dinner. This is unlike me. I have eaten. Fruit salads, bagel with peanut butter, turkey sandwiches, etc. However, I'm just not hungry.
My mind is spiraling with thoughts, prayer... people knowingly picking the worst path possible. It's exhausting. No, I can't fix them and their decisions, but their decisions are so detestable... I'm just not hungry.
It's almost like a fasting period at the moment. Diving into scripture has been my only thing at the moment. So... like last night I will eat a big dinner. The effort to eat during the day has been made:
Looks good. I just couldn't eat more than half. Sigh. The pastor will be back tomorrow, and I couldn't be happier. This week proved that I prefer being the youth pastor's wife not the head pastor's. =)