Friday, January 21, 2011
I've been doing pretty well.
I've set my SP stuff to maintain at 127 (I don't know if I weigh that or not, I'm still on scale boycott!) and I intend to eat mid/high in my new higher ranges. A lot of my mood issues can be undereating in addition to ED type thoughts.
I also have my first therapy appt on the 1st with someone who deals with ED, anxiety, depression and abuse issues - all things I need. I've already let her know I'm a long time vegan, that it's NOT a symptom or the cause of my food issues and is non-negotiable. She said she admires my conviction and will not try to attack my moral veganism or blame it for food stuff. Thank goodness.
Having heard from vegans in recovery/hospitals that they weren't allowed to be vegan made me nervous (and pissed, honestly. You're a medical profession and should be able to help them recover without completely ignoring their ethics/morals. You can totally gain weight on vegan food!) I'm nowhere near that sick (I eat, I'm a healthy weight, I don't need to be refed, etc.) but I know that veganism has been linked to ED/pro-ana stuff - some use it as a cover for their ED - and it can be looked upon suspiciously. Obviously, the vast vast vast majority of vegans aren't covering an ED, they are doing it for the animals/planet/their health - and with how vegans LOVE them some food (even ones like me who have food issues!) I'd say more of us eat too much than too little. ;) Vegan food is just so darn delicious. And all the vegans I know IRL and online love to cook/bake and are pretty fantastic at it. :)
But yeah, I got that part out of the way before the visit so I wasn't hit with an unpleasant surprise of having to defend my diet. Therapist seems like a nice lady. We'll how it goes.
Onward and upward.