Friday, January 21, 2011
Feeling much better now that I'm back at work. The crying spells still come and go. I know that I will never truly get over this loss but I know that I will keep moving forward. That's what he would want me to do. Making little steps to get back on track. Since I had stopped eating for a few days, I have been much better at portion control than I was previously. I always seemed to struggle with portion control. That doesn't seem to be the issue anymore. I am taking things one day at a time, one minute at a time. As long as I am making progess, I'm happy. It doesn't matter how little the progress is. When I do slip up, I'm not beating myself up like I used to do. I really feel passive at the moment, which has never been my personality. I am trying to find the good in myself out of all of this tragedy.