I realized now that there is no easy way to lose weight. You have to be willing to walk the walk and talk the talk. I've been on so many diets before and spent so much $ on losing propositions hoping that dieting alone could do the trick. It does not! Those diets did not work for me and, to be real, I was not ready to work for them either. I'd lose a little bit of weight, soon got bored and gave it up and finally regained the weight and much more. This time, it's going to be different! I guess I had to experience being completed defeated when shopping for clothes, I had to experience the pain in my ankles, my knees, my hips, I had to experience the feeling of being smothered by my own breasts when lying in bed, and I guess I had to reach my top weight of 281 lbs before I finally said, "ENOUGH! I want my life back."
My approach is different this time. I'm learning to forgive myself and I'm learning that it's OK to fall off the wagon as long as I don't stay down. The fact is that life happens all around me and I might as well learn to deal with it. In my world, DH likes junk food and although he's making an effort to be supportive, he does not like most of what I now eat. So, there is all kinds of tempting, unhealthy food in the house. I'm learning to deal with it. We also live in the country and go to town a couple of times a month to do some shopping and/or pick-up the grandchildren. I've sometimes brought my own lunch but I've also stopped at burger joints for a bite - Like I said, Life Happens! As long as I'm accountable for it and as long as I don't do it too often, I forgive myself and get back on track the very next meal. I've left behind my "all or nothing" attitude about dieting; it didn't work for me in the past and will never work for me either. I'm also working on an interesting concept one of my favorite sparkers has adopted - food as fuel. To see and use food only as fuel, take the nutrients you need to keep going and remove the perfect taste combination would allow me to not crave for a special food and help me not overeat. Anyways, I still have to work it out in my mind.
What is also different is that this time I've learned that I'm not too fat to exercise. I do not execute the moves with as impeccable a form as I should use, but I'm doing it the best way I can right now and as my body shrinks and allows me more flexibility, the form will improve with time. A few months ago, I did not think I could do as much.
Lastly, I've learn that the daily support system is very, very important. I've read so many interesting and uplifting stories and I've met electronically so many interesting and uplifting individuals that I feel I can't fail anymore. This time, it is different. This time, it will happen!
Thank you to all of you who have given me encouragement over the past few months. I hope you realize how important to me you have become.
Diane : ) ** Make it Happen in 2011 **