Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Ain't it the truth?
I just went on my first binge since I started my new eating plan 10 days ago. I have had days when I was purposely eating extra calories for the purpose of tricking my body into thinking that I wasn't trying to lose weight, but this was an all out binge.
It would be VERY easy to blame it on my sabotaging sister for buying the food in the first place. But that's like a junkie blaming the drug dealer for supplying him with drugs. It's pointless! And in the end it's a cop out. I am ALWAYS going to be faced with temptation. It's all around me. And the only one who can say no to it is me. Ofcourse...that's not an easy task. I mean...the reason I got so big in the first place was my utter inability to avoid binge eating. I'm not at all sure how to successfully tackle this issue. The new diet plan I am on has done MIRACLES with my cravings. Now I have to figure out how to "just say no" to eating trigger foods when they are offered to me. How will I do it? I have had to work SOOOO hard to stop eating unhealthy foods (most days), and then my sister goes and puts it right in my face! My sister knows what all my favorite dishes are, and that's the stuff she buys. Even though I have made the decision to own my eating mistakes, regardless of why I did it...my sister does know exactly what she's doing, and she does it regularly.