Is that really a light at the end of the tunnel?
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
As I am getting closer to the end of my weightless journey ( I am right now 147.8) and depending on when you ask me I am either 7.8 lbs away from my goal or 12.8 away my final goal keeps changing my high school weight was 135 so that is where the 12.8 comes from.
Anyways as I get closer I am reflecting more and more at the start of my journey at 220+ lbs I was such a different person, not just my body or my clothes size, I was sad, I was depressed, I was trying to ignore my hurt with unhealthy foods and beer. My love of clothes had been pushed back and I barely put on makeup, I can honestly say that at that point I thought I was going to be fat forever and that I need to kiss my former skinnier self goodbye. Man what a difference 3 years makes. When I made the decision to lose weight I knew that it was going to be a forever thing no fads or crazy diets for me. I began slow and just kept chugging along. There were times that I wanted to give up (especially during my year long platue at 169. I may have slowed down once and awhile but never gave up. I am thinking of making a time line in pictures of the last 3-4 years of my life so that I can see the progression good and bad. Anyways I am posting another (gulp) bathing suit pick (well two) I am really working on toning right now as I try and shed the remaining (very stubborn) pounds. "As I look at the pictures I can pick them apart for hours but I have to kick myself and say wait just a minute Jennifer look how far you have come"
I don't know if I will ever give anyone inspiration but I just want to say that 4 years ago I got winded going up a few stairs, I have now ran 3 5k's in the last year. I used to cry about exercising for 20 minutes 3 times a week; I can now handle almost any challenge Jillian throws at me.
So here’s to 2011 being the year I finally come face to face with my goal,
See you at the finish line,
And one in the original bikini that I first posted in :-)