Battlefield of the Mind
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
So I was up with great intentions. Went to bed early so I could get up EARLY and do my thang. aka Aerobics, Water and Exercise (A.W.E.). So far (and it's only 6 a.m. as I write this, which means I still have time if I REALLY got my ... moving) my mind is winning the battle. Here's how my resistance sounds (even thought I felt ok ie not too tired etc) Yeah SURE I can do it all as long as I get up at the a$$ crack of dawn. Get up, workout, go to work, come home make sure I get to sleep EARLY so I can get up and do it all over again wilst EVERYONE else gets to sleep, it's so unfair. NICE. My resentment then builds. Then I shake that thought off and I push myself. Shower done? Check. (I like to get up and shower before everything so my hair can start drying. Yeah I have to multi-task). Resistant thoughts resume... utto I don't think I am going to do it this morning. I can tell. I'm going to slack. Maybe I can just do it later. Sometime during the day. Its too dark to go walking by myself. When is daylight savings time gonna get here. If it wasn't so dark, I'd walk out that door right now. Bleh... That's all I can remember right now, but there were other dark thoughts that thus far added to the mind winning the battle. The negotiations continue for me to talk myself out of doing what I know I need to do to get back in shape. I hope by the end of this day I have positive news to report and I got my A.W.E. on... just want to record this stuff so I can devise an alternate plan of attack the next time this happens. Keep reading if you want to see if it worked or not =D.
Cognitive Behavior Therapy:
When exercise and dieting seems unfair, remind myself that
Iím not alone. This is how all successful dieters ,
maintainers and athletes act. I have a choice. I can let sense
of unfairness overwhelm me, cheat on my exercise routine,
and stay flabby. Or I can accept that this is what I
have to do if I want all of the benefits of permanent
It is true that I donít care at this very moment.
But if I donít go and exercise, I am going to care
quite a lot in just a few minutes. I know I will feel
really bad if I donít go work out. I will feel really terrific if I go.
I need to go do it now.
The only way to lose weight permanently is to learn
dieting and exercise skills and learn them every day.
This will get easier and easier
Iím choosing to say NO CHOICE. If I want to get fit and
have tight abs, I have to do what I need to do, not what
I feel like doing.
Exercise is non-negotiable for good health. I need
to make it be a daily lifetime habit. The hardest part
is getting started. Iíll feel so much better when Iím
done. So get started.
I've read my behavior cards... off to go walking it's getting light now!
WELLLLL. I didn't let my sense of unfairness overwhelm me. I got my shoes on, the dog and out the door I was. I have to admit, YES, I do feel terrific and I did not cheat myself out of my fitness routine today. I did what I needed to do NOT what I felt like doing. Just for today I'm now on my 13TH DAY OF CONSECUTIVE EXERCISING AND EATING RIGHT!!
An additional thought:
I really do deserve credit for breaking old habits.
and itís essential for building my confidence. Once
my confidence grows, everything will become much easier.
YAY for building confidence. We can do this. Are you with me? Now off to the races. Woohoo.
January 17, 2011
Walk - todo
Total Gym - Completed full circuit. Still need to do compounds and legs (tonight after work)
Thoughts: My mantra for today... don't think, just do.
More thoughts: I'm so grateful for all of my creature comfort! Blink tear eyedrops on my desk for when my eyes get fatigued throughout the day, my funny Disney California Adventure coffee mug that my friend gave me that has a grizzle bear for a handle (makes me smile), my PMA books and thought cards that I have hanging in my "pod" that keep my thoughts positive, my employment that provides all the lovely things in my life and keeps me going.