Tuesday, January 18, 2011
Hello there my friends!
I've been told I've been missed. Well I've missed you all too. :) But I've been having a hell of a time the last 4 months. :(
I'm trying to get back on the wagon. I haven't lost any more but luckily I haven't gained back a whole lot either. Only around 10 pounds. It's just getting back to it that's the hard part. Going back to recording everything you eat, going back to no more fast food... which is very hard for me right now being at school for 10 hours a day.
I'm hoping in the next few weeks I can get a new video blog up. I really do miss all of your comments and support and I probably needed it more than anything in the last few months but didn't realize it.
I've had some real low points in the last 4 months as well. Some binges, some sitting in the bathtub and crying... I'm sure some of you know those feelings. Lately I've felt like I will never reach my ultimate 150 pound goal... heck that's still 225 pounds away! I've felt as though even the 70 pounds I lost didn't make a difference. I know so much of that is ridiculous now, but it's so hard when you still can't buy pants at Lane Bryant and you're running out of acceptable clothes to wear.
We don't really have much food in the house right now, so at least we won't be needing to purge the house of any crap! But we can go grocery shopping on Thursday and I'm going to be getting back to it all.
I definitely need some support right now... more than ever. I should get back active in a few message boards but I've never really been known for staying active and on top of things in a community.
I miss you guys! I hope your weight loss journeys are going better than mine lately!