so i'm not officially starting my big changes until february 7th, but i am definitely getting my head where it needs to be and getting my motivation at top shelf this week. i am trying to regulate my sleep schedule to at least have a consistency with the AMOUNT of sleep i'm getting. half the time i stay up all night and half the time i sleep for 14 hours and neither of those is going to cut it if i'm actually going to succeed at this lifestyle change. i am aiming for 7-9 hours a night, obviously hoping for that magic 8, but i think within an hour either way and i should still be able to function and get my metabolism on track. there's a lot of big changes going on around here over the next couple weeks so aside from starting my diet and exercise regimen, i will be busy busy busy. i am hoping this will aid in distracting me from the initial desire to die. haha. i know this is going to be hard, i know i am going to want to quit. but i refuse to give up. i'm ready to be the beautiful me i have been missing for the last few years as i have put on pound after pound. it's time to do something for myself.