Monday, January 17, 2011
The past week has be a rough one for me. As you know, it started with my surgery date being cancelled... And I've had trouble shifting my focus away from the fears surrounding the surgery. I still managed to stay mostly positive though. The fear is creeping in, but I tell myself it's natural and part of the process. I do my best to put my worries aside and remind myself why I'm doing it.
On Friday, I had my pre-op appointment and it did help since many of my questions were answered. I met with a nurse, had various tests done, and met with the anaesthesiologist whom will most probably be with me for my surgery. He made me feel safe and reassured me. I don't have any English blood and was put under general anaesthesiologist before, so there should be no problems. He told me I'll get an intravenous and the next thing, I'll be waking up a bit groggy with no recollection of the last few hours...
Well I did get my new surgery date today... And it will be on Tuesday January 25th - in one week. And this time it's pretty solid since it was confirmed with the OR.
Since I received some instructions (and I met a fellow sparker who shared her very similar experience with me - God bless her!), I'm starting to get organised and will be making a short-term plan today that will include: preparation pre-surgery, planning post-surgery for my return home, and putting in place things for the first 3 weeks of recovery.
I need to put my fears and worries aside. I think keeping busy and making sure I'm well prepared will help me focus on something else. I also think about the positive outcomes this could bring me and how it would feel to finally live relatively pain free or at least with no more shooting pain down my leg.
Well I'll start my planning and will definitely let you know when I have it all figured out!!