Sunday, January 16, 2011
I survived the holidays and my birthday without gaining weight, but I didn't lose much either. I am 4 pounds over my projected loss line and that's a bit of a bummer. My wonderful son #1 went back to college today so that is also a bummer. I kind of got used to having him here for a month and now I'll have to get used to him being away again. But at least I have him in my life and he has given me so much. Isn't motherhood a wrenching experience? You love your kids so much and you deceive yourself into thinking they will always be with you. And then before you know it they are out making their own lives. Each step... first step, going to school, girlfriends/boyfriends, driving, college, etc feels like they are being physically wrenched away from you. You know it's the way it has to and should be and you wanted this for them, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.... a lot.