Sunday, January 16, 2011
My boyfriend and I were having such a nice time on New Year's Day. We lounged around, joked and laughed all day. Then he layed down on the couch that evening to take a nap. When I went to wake him and send him upstairs, I couldn't wake him up. He died that evening. I don't know how I've gotten through the last 2 weeks. I finally went to work this Thursday. I have started eating again, although I know it's not as much as I should be eating. Exercise has been on my mind for a few reasons but I haven't managed to do anything other than a set of leg lifts one night. He was a heavy drinker and smoker with alot of stress. For this reason, I want to get healthy, so I am around for my children and his. I also know that the exercise will help me deal with the stress. But I am walking around in a fog, dealing with life as best I can. It's difficult to carry on with everyday life but I have no choice. Life moves on whether I want it to or not. Although I do have family support, his family and mine, I wanted to reach out to the sparkpeople community. I don't know how my support system would feel about me talking about exercising and getting healthy so soon after his death.