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My New Year's Day Tragedy

Sunday, January 16, 2011

My boyfriend and I were having such a nice time on New Year's Day. We lounged around, joked and laughed all day. Then he layed down on the couch that evening to take a nap. When I went to wake him and send him upstairs, I couldn't wake him up. He died that evening. I don't know how I've gotten through the last 2 weeks. I finally went to work this Thursday. I have started eating again, although I know it's not as much as I should be eating. Exercise has been on my mind for a few reasons but I haven't managed to do anything other than a set of leg lifts one night. He was a heavy drinker and smoker with alot of stress. For this reason, I want to get healthy, so I am around for my children and his. I also know that the exercise will help me deal with the stress. But I am walking around in a fog, dealing with life as best I can. It's difficult to carry on with everyday life but I have no choice. Life moves on whether I want it to or not. Although I do have family support, his family and mine, I wanted to reach out to the sparkpeople community. I don't know how my support system would feel about me talking about exercising and getting healthy so soon after his death.
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    I am so sorry for your loss. emoticon
    2410 days ago
    Sorry for your loss and my opinion to you would be to take care of your health. Yes you can mourn his death and get healthy at the same time. Your kids need you to stick around for them so take time to take care of yourself. Also, it will probably help you deal with the loss better. emoticon
    2410 days ago
    What a sudden death!!! It is hard to know what to say except that I have an idea of what it must be like as I lost my sister November 29th of last year, though she had a long, lingering death starting in February of last year and when she died we felt a sense of relief that she was no longer suffering. Her daughter insisted on trying to keep her alive and had multiple medical procedures tried for her but finally had to let go when it appeared she would end up in a vegetative state if she didn't let her go.

    No matter, a sudden death or a lingering death it is a loss in your life and you need support. Spark People has several groups regarding loss of loved ones and I belong to one. Go to community and search for the others or go to my spark page and see the name of the group I am a member of (I can't recall the exact name of it). There are also articles on grieving on spark people and probably lots of things on the internet about this.

    I will say a prayer for you and your family. emoticon
    2410 days ago
    I'm so sorry for your loss. emoticon Hopefully they would understand that you're doing it to be healthy. emoticon
    2410 days ago
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