Sunday, January 16, 2011
Today was not great. Even though I slept in a bit, I was just totally exhausted, felt sick, and my GP was acting up. So I spent a lot of the day on the couch. I definitely needed a relax day, but I was hoping to do something at least.
I'm trying to figure out what is going on with my GP - why is it acting up sometimes but not others when I'm eating mostly the same things every day? So I added a new tracker on my weigh/measure log for how good my digestive system is working each day. I already track my weight every day (some days I randomly drop 2-3 lbs and can't figure out why, so I have to watch it), as well as stress level, sleep quality, energy level, and self esteem level. I'm hoping that by adding this new tracker with everything else I might be able to figure out why my GP randomly acts up some days.
WARNING: the following may be TMI for you if you don't want to hear about digestive system problems! If you're grossed out by this stuff, skip the next paragraph please!
I know my GP is affected by stress: when I was a kid if I ate when I was stressed I would throw up. After dealing with some eating disorders in my teens and early 20s it is now rare for me to throw up and if I feel nauseous from being sick I can usually stop myself from involuntarily throwing up. I know a lot of that last sentence affects and/or worsens my GP, but this is the way it is now and I can't go back and change it. But after today, I'm wondering if it is affecting my intestines as well. See, last night my stomach was hurting (hello gastroparesis), then this morning my stomach was only sore but my intestines were hurting. This afternoon my body released some undigested food and my intestines felt better. I have times like this, where my body decides not to digest something that it doesn't have problems with at other times. So if the food isn't causing the problem, is it a sudden jump in stress level doing it? If so, I'm screwed because I can't seem to get the constant stress out of my life! It could also be a lack of sleep, and I'm trying to correct that, but it is proving as hard to do as ever.
So with my GP acting up, my body deciding to be extra cold, and because I felt so tired, I just couldn't justify going anywhere. Bummer, but it's okay because I watched and deleted a couple hours of shows on my DVR (I needed to do that).
I'm going to go to bed in a few minutes (already showered and in my pjs) and try to get some good sleep. Hoping for less GP issues tomorrow so I can go to the grocery store, try to do some laundry, and consider going to get my boots. If I'm up to it, I might even finally get around to taking down the xmas decorations I still have up in my house.
I'm finishing this by giving my positives for today: My GP was acting up but I still got all my food in and spent some time sitting up instead of on the couch the entire day. I cleaned up some of my DVR. And I got my cat to spend some time cuddling with me again today.