The longest journey - reflections 7 months down the road.
Thursday, January 13, 2011
I began this journey last July at 328 pounds. At that time the journey in front of me was so long that I didn't even THINK about where the "end" might be. It was all I could do to think about getting through one day much less a week or a month. The sheer magnitude of the amount of weight I needed to lose was so staggering that I decided only to "begin".
The first week was hard. I won't sugar coat it. It was VERY hard. The only way I managed to get through it was by sticking like glue to the website. I tracked every bite of food, explored every nook and cranny of the site and read blogs. I thought about food constantly and focusing on the site was the only thing that kept me out of the kitchen. Somehow I managed to survive my first week. I lost two pounds. It seemed like a failure . How could I work that hard and lose so little?
In years past this would be the point where I quit, but this time quitting wasn't an option. I had come to that place where I knew I had no choice but to keep pressing on. No turning back. Failure wasn't in my vocabulary.
The next week I lost 3 pounds. Three was better than two, but more importantly now I had lost 5 pounds total. I was still thinking about food all the time but I had managed to claw my way through yet another week.
The real turning point came at 3 weeks. I had lost another 2 pounds for a total of 7 pounds but more importantly I was not thinking about food all the time. I had become familiar with tracking my food and fitness. As I navigated around the site I began testing the waters on the forums. I tried posting and answering posts.
Soon I joined a few teams. I learned others struggled with the same issues and many had great tips. I stumbled into the lists of upcoming challenges and found one that had a finite time and promised team support. This sounded RIGHT for me. Soon the weeks of 1 -3 pound losses had added up and I was below 300! What a day! That success alone energized me and carried me forward. That challenge ended and I had lost another 23+ pounds over the 12 week period. I signed up for another 12 week challenge. These "doable" challenges are helping me step my way down the path to health and fitness and the weight is coming off.
I should hit the 50 pounds lost mark this week. I'm looking further down the road now. I have a long way yet to go, but when I look back over my shoulder the starting point is now out of view. I'm committed to the journey. I now believe I CAN and WILL succeed. It may take a long time but every day I wake up feeling so much better than I did when I began.
Are you still struggling at the starting line? Are you afraid to commit to the journey just because you can't see the destination?
Just begin - NOW. Stick like glue to the website and don't let quitting be an option. Find a team/challenge to join. USE the tools and information available. Do not be afraid to ask questions. Be honest and transparent with the people on the board. They can't help you if you aren't. The beauty of the site is that the people here KNOW why you are here and will not ridicule or belittle you.
If you hear a yell rising up from the midwest over the next week it's just me celebrating my 50 pound milestone. Stay tuned because I'm not stopping there!