i'm a big ole' TARD! PLEASE READ!
Thursday, January 13, 2011
OH EM GEE!!!! i have to share. please learn from my mistake!!!!!
okay, so... i'm a box checker, crossser-offer, list making type of gal...
which is why i think spark really works for me cause i get to log EVERYTHING and SEE results.
with that said....
i clearly, log religiously, everything on the nutrition tracker. mostly cause i love it. i hate it when i am like 1 CARB away from the range the website has said i need. i would almost stress about it. i would FIND something to eat to put me in the "correct range," even if i wasn't hungry, just so the computer would say "good job" at the end of the night. i have issues. hehe.
i had suffered some teasing when it came to spark. i was "to anal," some might say. haha. and they were right.
as crazy as i am with the nutrition tracker, i didn't though, log my workouts. i had done it in the beginning when all i was doing was walking because it's listed in the choices for working out. then, i started going to SOLID (my 3x week workout at church) and MT (our fearless leader) has really creative and non boring work outs for us. impossible to log. i'm the type of person that doesn't like to log "things that are similar" or "close to what we did." if what we did isn't listed, i don't log it. period. because it isn't accurate.
so.... in my attempt to be "less anal" i decided, it was okay to NOT log the workouts i was doing.
i KNEW i was doing them and that's all that needed to matter. i ignored the tracker that said, "you need to burn 400 calories today to be on track." i knew i was doing that AND MORE and decided to "let it go."
STUPID ME didn't put two and two together when my caloric range dropped majorly one day. i thought, "oh, i've lost some weight, so maybe i don't need as many calories anymore." i'm not used to losing weight so i didn't understand how the caloric range worked. DUH! (i could totally kick myself now)
i was scrimping by with 1200-1550 calories a day and being almost disappointed with myself when each day was right up against that 1550 line.
today, praise Jesus, i decided to just log "circuit training" as what i did for the day, even though i knew it wasn't completely accurate. and LOW AND BEHOLD it told me that 60 minutes of circuit training at my size burned EIGHT HUNDRED AND NINETY ONE CALORIES. i do this THREE TIMES A WEEK!!! i'm burning more than that i'm sure but that alone is nearly 2700 calories a week!
my caloric range JUMPED UP so high it almost left the screen! okay, not that crazy but it might as well have! i have been jipping myself for almost 2 months now, if not more, on calories!!!!! my range jumped to 1500-1800 calories A DAY!!!! i was beating myself up mentally for eating almost 1500 calories a day and that is supposed to be the BOTTOM of my range!
i feel like a tard for not putting that together sooner. (probably not enough calories to work my brain properly!) haha! things are sooooo much better now. i've been eating for a 120 pound girl for a few months and i'm 225! now i feel like there is so much room in my meals. i feel like i almost don't need to be such a Nazi when i measure my nonfat milk in my coffee!!! guh.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE learn from my mistake. don't do what i did! if you learn from it, i will feel justified that my suffering was to aide others in their learning process. otherwise, i'm just an idiot.