Have you ever had a material item that you were in love with? I can't say that I have until this week. A little history first...
A long, long, long time ago... in May 2010, I embarked on the journey to lose weight. I entered my weight loss on Spark with very little goals. So, I randomly picked a weight I had never been as my goal, but my most important goal I never voiced. My number 1 goal was to go from wearing a size 20 jean to a size 10.
This seemed like a huge goal, too big to ever share. Was it possible to even get to this size? One time in my life I wore a size 10, but it was tight, a 12 was much more comfortable. This time, I wanted those 10's to be comfortable. Slowly I lost weight, some weeks the numbers were great and other weeks, not good. And I started to drop the pants sizes.
I liked putting on those 18's, then 16's, then 14's. It was a great moment when I bought those 12's because I realized that I really could do this, that I could succeed. My thinking had already changed by this point. I didn't think of myself as dieting, but living a healthy lifestyle. Over the holidays, I noticed my 12's were becoming baggy but **gulp** the thought of trying a size 10 was too much. I couldn't do it.
Finally, on Saturday, January 8, I decided to try. I promised myself I wouldn't be too disappointed when they didn't fit, that eventually I would get there. I spent 20 minutes looking for a pair of jeans, the ones I couldn't pass up. I left my son standing outside the changing room and went in. The big moment was finally here. I was so nervous as I undressed, preparing for those jeans. I second guessed myself and thought about waiting it out a couple more weeks, but I pursued.
Then I slipped those jeans on, and pulled them up EASILY, with no struggle over my thighs that still need work. There was no trouble buttoning them over my belly that is a long way from being flat. I stood looking in the mirror amazed that I had finally reached my goal size. This was it, the moment I've been waiting for since May!! And before I left that dressing room, I thought... Wait a minute, is it possible that I can lose enough to wear a size 8?