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Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Hola Spark Nation! And Feliz Navidad, Joyeux Noel, Happy New Year and all that jazz.

I have been away for awhile- and I have felt the missing spark in my life.

Let me recap: Both my husband and I got three-alarm chest infections/pneumonia. The cat got really sick with an illness that made her incontinent. (Yay! Cat pee! Everywhere!) Then the medication I had to give her twice a day- EVERYDAY -turned into a trauma for both of us. There was blood (from me) and sweat (also from me) and tears (yep- still me) and lots an’ lots of drool and dirty looks (from the cat). Then the car got a flat tire (just before a doctor’s appointment that we were already late for - I may add). I was stressed out, occasionally flipped out, worn out, out for the count and over and out.

In short December sucked.

Then the longer I was away the harder it seemed to log on- you know? I was just too exhausted. I didn’t have the energy to explain why I was away. Little things were making me cry all month- and I am not normally a cry-er. I just think that I had been carrying too much for too long (especially with my husband’s disability) and life in general got to be too much. So I checked out for a bit. Really - it was all I could do to go to work, come home, get food on the table and go to bed. Then repeat it all the next day. (Friends were saying to each other: “Remember Karla?” “Yeah” they would respond wistfully “she was nice.”)

I will confess to having a bit of a pity party for myself, nay, I think I worked myself up to a Pity Gala; complete with streamers, balloons an ice sculpture and skywriters. “It’s not fair!” I thought. “Life sucks” I thought some more. “Why me?” I might have mused on occasion.

But here’s the thing- I did not gain weight.

How about that? So even though I was not logging in I somehow had enough of SP imprinted on me that I did not dive into nachos for solace.

Mind you, I didn’t lose weight either - but considering everything I still feel amazed that I did not eat my body weight in Turtles (The delicious pecan-chocolaty goodness, not the reptiles of course).

I even hauled my poor battered emotional self to workouts and stuff.

I somehow kept going.

And now I am back. I started reading the Spark book that I just knew I had to save until I really needed it. I am taking it slow as all of that positivity makes me queasy (kidding- sort of). But it has been very thought provoking and challenging to read. I’ll keep you posted with any changes or goals that get made.

In closing, I hope there are still people reading this blog and that you haven’t given up on me!

And finally to all the people who joined my team that I (ulp!) co-lead, and to my co-leaders named and unnamed, I thank you for being there when I wasn’t. I hope I haven’t let you down too badly.

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    I'm sorry December was so icky, and it doesn't sound like January was great, but YAY for not gaining! I hope to see you on Spark more often as you get back into things. emoticon
    2435 days ago
    Wow girlfriend, that sucks. I'm so sorry you've been going through so much.
    You didn't let us down, you took care of yourself - that's what being "sparky" is all about. You did what you needed to do.
    I'm so proud of you. You've done so well!
    2443 days ago
    Hey... you worked out, you put one foot in front of the other, and you got through it without gaining... way to go !!!

    And welcome back!
    2446 days ago
  • JRIMM4
    Welcome back!!! Heres hoping for a better January!

    2446 days ago
    Ice sculptures. Excellent.

    Thanks for checking back IN.

    Is that not what matters, cheri? :)
    2446 days ago
    Yay!! I'm glad you're back and doing all right! Rough months suck, but you got through it with flying colors!

    Welcome back!!

    2447 days ago
    Good for you for not gaining, and for resisting temptation and working out @ Christmas!!!
    And welcome back. I am new to SP, but it sounds like you were missed! :0)
    2447 days ago
    I am sorry you had such a rough go of it the last month i kinds know how it is sometimes!

    I am soooooooooooooooooooooo happy you are here

    i am totally here and reading!

    fitxforty just did not work for me emoticon


    2447 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/12/2011 11:57:56 AM
    So glad to see you're back!! I missed you, and I was keeping my fingers crossed that everything was okay with you and that you would re-join us soon. Sounds like a rough month, but you did GREAT! I give you so much credit for maintaining your weight during such a rough patch. WELCOME BACK!!
    2447 days ago
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