Tuesday, January 11, 2011
I am so looking forward to tomorrow-- to eat clean, and to move and to be on the track to physical happiness!!
I feel gross, gross, gross-- I am experiencing post holiday sugar withdraws and it is hard to stay away from it! People are now bringing in left over sweets that they don't want in their home anymore... yes so instead of a cream puff and half a cannoli in their belly- IT WENT INTO MINE!! WTH!
But tomorrow that will all change... it will all turn to POISON! That is what I tell myself when I am on track and confronted with a sabotaging situation... I say to myself.."that is poison!" It does work.
I did pull the "this is the last time I will get to eat ______________ "(insert any food that is scrumptious) and actually ordered a lunch that came with french fries...... I NEVER ORDER FRENCH FRIES at work because I am embarrassed to be the fat girl eating french fries next to the healthy young sleek health teacher that eats so clean! But I panicked... and ordered them and ate them right in front of her! NO SHAME!! But when I start a serious cleansing (well serious for me, it is all relevant) my body I do not eat french fries... I tell myself that is an opportunity to order a side salad and get in more veggies. I do okay with this too- but I did panic yesterday!! I blamed my period.. that really isn't here yet but it felt better to think it was a PMS moment!!
So I am still working towards turning things around tomorrow!! I can't wait to just feel in control (that is worth it too!!). It will be interesting for me to blog about exercise... that could get ugly!!
Wish me well!!