Saturday, January 08, 2011
First of all, I want to say thank you to everyone that really came to my "rescue". You are the bestest!! I was really having a total meltdown but I am better for it. Somethings just needed closure and be expunged. The best part of it all is that I really was able to take a hard look at what makes me tick and why do I do what I do. Its over. Its one thing to deal with some raw issues, its another to live in it.
I know first hand the power of goals, what it feels like to really be a winner and thats what I need.
We are officially off the the Boo Hoo Crew and moving forward.
You dont come as far as I have by wallowing around in the blues and sitting on your thumb. It takes action in spite of how I feel. Thats what it took before, that is what it will take again, that is what it ALWAYS takes. This is not the voice of someone trying to pump himself up, this is the voice of experience. I can do this and have done it, and will do it again.
Goal give me focus and drive. Momentum is what gets the ball rolling and success is what fuels the fire. I am done with the issues. They are behind me. I talked to my trainer a few days ago and told her that I was dropping out of the Spring marathon. I signed up for this back in October and since the half marathon, I havent put in another long run since short of a 10k. I was hoping to be up to 16 miles for a long run distance by the end of the year since there is always a little regression over winter and I know it takes some road time to build yourself back up hut I fell way behind due to illness and a running injury from the half marathon.
I told the trainer I was going to drop out and she basically raised herself up to her 5'5" height ( im 6'2) and said basically " over my dead body". I guess that is plain enough.
Tomorrow, I am doing a 5K on the treadmill just to get the ball rolling. Treadmills are not the ideal training device, outdoor runs are the way to go but considering the weather and temps, I will take whatever equipment I can get and exploit them to maximum advantage. We are not surrendering by default. I got my fight back and its show time. time to train.
My mental challenge is to finish my Personal Training Certification in the next month or two. I need to re-engage the books and my mind. A sharp mind is the best weapon.
Its time to fight....