Friday, January 07, 2011
Well do I feel like I accomplished nothing today at the Dr's? You bet. I felt like a child lectured about how I eat and should exercise. She never heard a thing I said. I brought a menu sample of what I eat and told her how I exercise. And she picked apart every little thing she could find. Looked at me and said its about calories in and calories out. Well I think 2,500 calories out and 1340 calories in, I should be seeing some results after 2 1/2 months. She said the reason I gained might have been because of PMS. However she would run a few blood tests and see me again in 1 month. That I should pick up my exercise and lower my calorie intake to 1100 calories for a few days. But not to worry because I am healthy otherwise. And I look good. I have a nice shape and not bulging.
Thank God for my husband. He was the one who saw me struggling and urged me to see the Dr. He was waiting for me when I left the Dr's office and hugged me and suggested I seek the advise of another Dr. I love him for his support, however I will wait for test results and probably not go elsewhere. It was very humiliating for me in that office today. Mostly because it is an office owned by a family member.
I will not give up in my struggle to lose weight. I do feel healthier since I restarted exercising in Oct. Depression is gone and body aches are not as bad. I wallowed in self pitty tonight and hit the M&M's and cheetos. But I will work that off tomorrow and then some. If I have to exercise 4 hrs a day and live on 1,100 calories a day, I will do this. I eat healthy, mostly fresh vegi's and very little if no processed foods. I drink 8 - 10 glassed of water a day, no soda. I do not have high blood pressure, diabetes or high cholesterol.
I will not give up! I will succeed!