Friday, January 07, 2011
So, something happened in my family yesterday that has really made me stop and think about what it is I have been doing in the past year, in terms of weight loss, healthy eating, improved lifestyle. All these were choices that I wanted to make; none of them were "required" of me. Maybe I felt that I required them of myself, but there was no outside agency dictating my goals and deadlines.
I realize in looking at it from this perspective, I was very lucky to come to this road by choice and to move forward (and sometimes back) on it because I wanted to, not because I felt an obligation to do so. I'm sure there are many SP'ers that came to this journey because they were required to do so, because of health reasons, relationship issues, work, etc. I want to say to all of those folks, I have so much empathy for where you are now and where you're going. You can totally do this and there are so many people who love and support you and want you to succeed, requirement or no requirement.
Personally, this has sparked me to take time to be mindful of what I'm eating, doing and saying in a way that I deviated from over the past several months. I fully admit that I let myself fall in to the early winter blahs. I know I've been absent here. I have been trying to tell myself that it was an experiment to see how I would do without the constant weighing, measuring, tracking and obsessing. Overall, I did okay. I went up and down in my goal weight range, but have managed to stay in it, holiday treats, skipped workouts and all. But really, it wasn't an experiment. I was depressed and tired and didn't want to add another to-do to my list.
In support of my family, I'm committing to being an active participant in my health and fitness goals again. I am going to spend 5-10 min on SP tracking daily and 5-10 min reading other's blogs/forum posts/etc and commenting. I want to be as positive a role model as I can be, and I know with the tools available here, I can help my family get past the "requirement" idea and get in to the best time of their lives.
Much love to my family