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Friday, January 07, 2011

This is my first blog for 2011 and it ain't pretty!! The holidays did me in, big time. I am fearful of the scale and have not stepped on since before 2011. While the food has been out of control, I will say I still visited SparkPeople almost daily, and at least weekly. At one point I put all of the recipes I have collected in my wooden recipe box and logged them in here (some not so heart healthy)- I did this to keep myself thinking and being as mindful as I could be during the holidays. I was not, and hopefully will not give up all together.

I need to journal my food regularly again and I have to MOVE... I am boring myself as I have been saying this since I came back to SparkPeople last November but I have to fake it until I make it!! I also need to finish the SparkPeople book, I have read and blogged through Chapter 2. Today I will do chapter 3 (I have a snow day- and no excuses). I also think I need to living up my food... years ago I LOVED protein shakes I added bananas and blueberries to.. and I lost 19 pounds using them (they kept hunger at bay for long periods of time), and I need to cook more at home.. my husband and I are restaurant-aholics!

I have also realized that I am very affected by the loss of the need my children use to have for me. My daughter is 18 now (and away at college) and my son is 14 and a freshman in high school and busy busy busy... I am alone ALOT! And you would think- oh more time for me to exercise... but I am feeling such a loss that I think I need to dig my feet into something. I am contemplating getting my Doctoral Degree... or getting involved with something that has me with people doing things more often. I have become VERY unmotivated and sedentary. So I have to work on that! I need to think that exercise has to be a part of this as well.. I have NO REASON not to come home every day and get on my treadmill, use my Wii Fit and my swiss ball and weights... NO REASON!! And- my Mom who lives 1.8 miles from me, has a little gym with elliptical, and incumbent bike... everything is available to me! Why I don't do anything I am sure is connected to my clinical depression (that goes the enth power during this season) and lake of sleep do to my UARS (that I have tried to manage and just can't seem to). I do mange my depression and I am NOT sad.. my meds are magical but the energy fact is still so flat and that is a symptom my meds are unable to tweak do to the lack of sleep I am sure. EVEN SO, I really can defeat all of that!! Fake it til you make it - is my mantra right now!

It is time to STOP self reflecting and start DOING!!!
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    One step, one day at a time....that is all any of us can do.

    If you watch tv--do leg lifts, squats etc. Make up your own...any kind of movement.
    Waiting on the microwave .... do march in place or whatever.
    Each time you go to the bathroom....10 wall pushups, etc.
    You get the idea....


    If I can be of any help, shoot me a private message.

    Nancy, co-leader Keep It Simple team
    2572 days ago
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