This blog title is for all of you because truly could I ever feel more loved right now. I am severely broken and that is okay right now but I will soar because my husband has taught me how.

Let me say just a few things because it is midnight and I am so not functional right now. I am working very hard inside trying to build my strength to get up and do my husbands eulogy at the church on Monday. There is so much to say and it can only come from me. I ask alll of you to help me get the strength to "one more time" show my husband how much I love him. My son is going to stand with me for support and I thank god - he is not doing well at all with Bern's death and speaking wouldn't be an option for him. It isn't for me either but I am absolutely compelled.

My husband and I had a love that is on a completely different level or plane than any traditional married relationship. I was loved in a way that can never be repeated. I feel so blessed to have had the privilege to be loved by this man and he has given me gifts that are priceless. If I can write and get through the eulogy then I will write it in a blog so that I can share with you my tribute to my beautiful husband.

I love you all so very much and this outpouring of love and support has done more for me than you can ever know. A simple thank you surely is not enough and yet it is meaningful in every way.