Thursday, January 06, 2011
2010 was a roller coaster of emotions for me... had highs, lows and I am pretty sure I came off the rails at a couple different points. Being a rather emotionally impaired individual this was both chaotic and traumatic for me but somehow I made it through. In 2011 I plan on taking better care of me.... yes that sounds SO selfish, but I always spend so much time and energy trying to make sure everyone else is happy that I lose track of myself. I am at my weight goal more or less..... I will never be the perfect person I want to see in the mirror, but for me I'm ok. I will learn to accept the reflection and be happy with it. It's time for me to start focusing on healing what's inside me know.... The focus no longer on what everyone can see. In turn ..... since I tend to be an emotional binger... or a nonemotional one lol... I will be better to keep up my healthy habits for me verses what I worry everyone else is thinking of me all the time. This post isn't really for anyone but me, but I feel better getting out..... Maybe it's even time for me to make a life ..... The real kind with structure and happiness... we shall see :P
Here's to 2011 may it be a very good year!!